4 months

Happy 4 months Ant!

It is just amazing how fast the months go by. I can't believe he is 4 months already. Today he has his 4 month appointment. I am always very anxious about Ped appointments because they weigh him and if he doesn't weigh enough the Ped talks about formula. Well for the second appointment in a row his Ped has been happy with his weight gain. He was 12lbs 9oz today and that is just 3oz shy of a 2lb weight gain in a month.

This last week has been amazing with him. I have been home with him all day (SCHOOLS OUT FOR SUMMER!) and he has FINALLY gotten the hang of nursing. It was absolutely amazing because all of a sudden on Saturday he got it. I am hopeful in a week or 2 we won't need a bottle anymore. Also I am down to 4 pumpings a day, that is down from 8!! Even with only pumping 4 times I day I end up with way to much breastmilk. I think this has a lot to do with nursing. As soon as he started nursing better my milk supply went through the roof.

For now life is great!

Here are a few pics! Enjoy!

American Girl

I think every person has a dream of what their child/ren will look like. They pick their best features and combine them together. A few days ago I was driving home from work and the song "American Girl" by Carrie Underwood came on. It got me thinking about my dreams of our little girl (the one we were suppose to have). My American girl was going to be the perfect combination of DH and I. She would have my brown hair, my smile, and my chin dimple. She would have DH's beautiful blue eyes and perfectly strong teeth. She would also have a uni brow...but there is wax for that. My American girl still exists in my imaginations and I still dream about her. Part of moving on to DE was moving past the dream of my American girl, the perfect child of my dreams. I might still dream about her but the real perfect child sits in front of me now, my amazing son who smiles at me every day. Being a mother of a DE child makes you realize there is much more to being a mother then passing on your genes. It is about sharing your love with your child. The child you were meant to have.

I still dream of my American girl but I love my little miracle Ant.

Baby Steps

I know it has been a long time since I have written, but I have to admit being a working mom is hard work. To top it off you miss so much time with you child. Many people like being working moms or have to be working moms but if I am given the choice I would stay home in a heart beat. During maternity leave I enjoyed spending all day with Ant, even though some days were better then others. At this point I am just counting down my work days, so I can start being home with Ant again full-time.

As for BFing, we have hit a break through this weekend. For the first time since we started BF and bottle feeding he is consistently leaving extra milk in his bottle. I am assuming this means he is getting more milk from me now. Also when I go to pump afterwards I am getting less milk.

Recently we also went to the Pediatric ENT. I will tell you more about that visit in another post but on thing I will share is it is confirmed he has laryngomalacia. I must run, I can hear Ant squirming in his crib.